this beautiful martini is making me nostalgic-- and wishful

i wish:

i could see my friend Karol.
i could go to NYC.
Alicia and i could have more time together.
i knew how to be helpful to my friends who are sad.
i could buy a pogo ball.
i had gone to medical school.
i could go back to school whenever i want to.
i could see Sara.
i had discipline.