funk

have you ever noticed that when you feel like shit it starts to seem like everything that happens around you is all about you? if you are sad about something, every song is about that subject. if you are afraid of something, there is a commercial to encourage continued anxiety. if you are just in an all-around kind of funk, every song, every movie, every television show reflects everything that sucks about your current situation.

since my last post, all of my favorite television programs, the most recent indy film from netflix, the songs on the radio, and the interviews on minnesota public radio have all conspired to mock me with cosmic fucking proportions. the details are unnecessary (and none of your fucking business) but things have been a bit off for the past few weeks and everywhere i turn i am reminded. even the midwestern position mix--which i totally love, by the way. there were a few songs on the disc that i am not terribly familiar with. awesome songs, but it’s not exactly a great day to learn a song about "my barbecue"--to burn all of my dreams that didn’t come true...

does this happen as a result of the natural self-centeredness of sadness? am i making everything reflect the fact that i suck right now? or is it that all forms of media are inherently negative and tragic and depressing and one just becomes more sensitive to it when it mirrors (or mocks!) one’s own experiences? whatever it is, i am ready to be done with all of that. ready for some comedy, please.