eBayzondotoneclickshoporama

i would just like to state for the record that i probably should not be allowed to play on eBay.

i go to the grocery store and if the list of grocery needs is longer than three, i can't remember unless i write it down. i get on eBay and i suddenly remember everything i have ever wanted in my life for as long as i have had conscious memory. i am searching for poetry books i didn't even know existed, LP's that i want- just to have, not to play- i don't even have a turntable, but i bought an LP last week. i am currently receiving a shipment from either eBay or Amazon.com almost every day. i have my LP, 4 books, a few dvd's... i am currently waiting for two more books... and i have a bid on a rothko print that would look so perfect in my living room.

i am a total bibliojunkie and i can't resist a book that seems interesting if someone wants to send it to me for ten dollars. unfortunately the two books that i want more than any others right now are still listing for approximately 235 dollars on all possible internet sources. damn it. oh well, maybe i will go back to eBay and find myself a nice beaded headpiece of some kind. just to have, not to wear. that will ease my sadness.

just so tired

today i am extremely tired and still a little bit sickly. i can't sleep at night so i sort of stumble through the day on autopilot, resting as best i can while still standing and talking. i am frustrated with this situation and thus, might be just a little bit crabby. when i am a little bit crabby, i tend to be a little bit negative. this is just a warning: a crabby, cold, sick, sleep-deprived girl is writing this. that said, this seems like a good day to offer a list of the things that i am just so fucking tired of...

1. i am tired of subzero temperatures.
2. i am tired of people asking me if i am "cold enough".
3. i am tired of working all the time.
4. i am tired of making "skinny" sugarfree vanilla lattes.
5. i am tired of small talk.
6. i am tired of pretending not to be offended.
7. i am tired of being asked if i am married.
8. i am tired of never talking about the things that matter to me.
9. i am tired of living in a town where a monster truck show is front page news.
10. i am tired of waiting.