keeping up appearances

i know it isn't a great reason to blog, but i have almost never had a great reason to blog. i have to write a post today because it is the last week in april and i haven't posted yet this month. if i fail in these last few days to offer some kind of rant or blather, this month will not appear in the archive list in my sidebar. this type of thing is disturbingly important to me. since i returned to this blog in october of '05, each subsequent month is listed in the archive. so many things would be wrong with missing one now. it's not just that the list would be incomplete, which is reason enough for alarm, but that i would see it regularly and every time i would know that there is nothing i can do to mend the gaping hole. once april is gone there is no going back and pretending to post during the month of april. i just can't have that kind of thing. incidentally, if it is possible to go back and change the dates of a post under circumstances such as that which i am trying avoid, i don't want to know about it. it seems like i would be relieved by such news, but the whole idea just projects a kind of insincerity that is not allowed in my world. and that is all there is. i am too tired to stand here and write anything else. i don't know that i have anything to say even if i had the energy... so poof, i'm gone!